Or… Are We Blessed?

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Every creature has a lot to overcome.  I have an illness or two, etc.  Sometimes life can be a struggle.  For everyone.  But how we see our challenges radically changes our future.  Here’s how:  if we just mope around feeling sorry for ourselves, what scope is there for making a positive outcome happen?  I can’t see it.  The only way to make positive changes is to see each challenge as a chance to grow.

How do you see your situation?

It’s World Mental Health Day!

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I have bipolar. We all know that. But what I’d like to talk about is how wonderful the people around me are. I live in a building filled with people mentally and physically different from ‘normal’. They are truly and thoroughly some of the best people I have ever met. So understanding, so caring.

Don’t judge us or pity us. The only hardship we face is people that don’t care.

Speaking The Truth

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My mind was a mess as a young adult; I didn’t know who I was or what my beliefs were.  People pleasing was my life skill, it was how I’d made it to adulthood.  But now, in this real world I found myself in, there was a new challenge to face: being me.  But what was me?

Well, I had a breakdown, and tried to look at it from every angle.  I looked at reality and tried to make that absolute too.  It worries me a little to this day.

But what I realised, in increments, is that it’s okay to be a little unsure.  Everything you’re experiencing is ok.  So long as you’re honest, at least with yourself, about it.

Honesty is the only way to de-tangle a brain.  Go on, give it a go.

MS And Mental Health

UJ TeaWhen you are diagnosed with MS, there is no emotional support.  When you have had a relapse, there is nothing either.  You are told to ‘get on with it’ and similar phrases.

To which I say… ‘what?’

I was diagnosed at 23, which is young – I didn’t know who I was, where I wanted to be, or, at that point, what meaning I even attached to my life.

When I lost my legs, at 26, I went literally mental.  I ended up in mental hospital.

I now have yearly episodes of psychosis – and unsurprisingly the delusions always centre around my health.

I wasn’t able to cope with my illness and I wish I had had more support.  My health outcome would have been better.

Emotional support is necessary for people with MS.  Spread the word.

Health Headlines

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“Shock story!”  “Disease risk!”  “…as rates reach record high!”

Illness is categorised and then sensationalised.  It is torn apart from it’s counter-part, health, and presented as an entrancing gruesome tit-bit for you to enjoy with your coffee.

It is telling that only one out of twelve headline articles on the CNN website is even in the vein of  ‘Slow down and live long with the ancient practice of qigong’.

Basically, the media makes health and illness into something completely alien from what it is – to sell papers – by making it exciting, whereas actually we all really just need to listen to ourselves and what we need to be well.

Trust yourself, listen to yourself.  Stay well.

The Nurse That Understands

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‘Those glasses are too good for you…’

I grinned.  How could my Tysabri nurse know me so well?  It had been a thought for a while.  I had peered all around the problem and tried to knead it into shape.

‘I’ll grow into them,’ I said.

And I did.

 

I properly love my Tysabri team.  I love how they just understand psychosis.

I also love my glasses.