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The Nurse That Understands

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‘Those glasses are too good for you…’

I grinned.  How could my Tysabri nurse know me so well?  It had been a thought for a while.  I had peered all around the problem and tried to knead it into shape.

‘I’ll grow into them,’ I said.

And I did.


I properly love my Tysabri team.  I love how they just understand psychosis.

I also love my glasses.

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10 Ways To Make Yourself Happy


Happiness is within reach.  Here is my list of mood boosting activities – it is a list I keep for when I need a pick-me-up.  Try making your own list and watch your life expand.

  1. Write a letter to an old friend.  In fact write lots of letters to lots of friends.  It will let people know they mean something to you, keep your connections strong and fill you with warmth to remember your special people.
  2. Spend some quality time in nature.  Flowers and leaves, an autumn breeze;  if you can’t remember the feeling, go and explore; see for yourself.
  3. Bake something tasty.  A wholesome quality only found in the kitchen.  Even if it’s through use of a bread maker, cook up a treat, and then share with your family, neighbours and friends.  Joy!
  4. Cuddle your pet.  Just look at them…  A cuddle would make you both happy and you know it.


  5. Make a smoothie.  Health, vitality, fruit.  What’s not to love.
  6. Water your plants.  It’s a nurturing feeling.  Try it – and the plant will thank you by continuing to fill the air with freshness and oxygen.
  7. Do a little organising.  Making lists is oddly relaxing.  Your head has everything in order, you know?
  8. Do a little sprucing.  Tidying is far from a chore when you know you’re heading for a better mood.  Put some music on.  Get into it.
  9. Do a yoga pose.  You don’t have to spend money as free lessons are all over the internet.  Breathing and relaxing into a posture is a delicious way to energise and unwind.

    Affirmations Work

  10. Play your favourite music.  Dancing around the kitchen or laid back taking in the world; it makes no difference.  Music is the original source; it makes you happy.
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A Spectacular View


The view as life slows down is pretty spectacular.

I am seeing different possibilities in the way I act, for example, the more I meditate.

I also feel less of the grip of social media.  I rarely post on facebook now, and so it is not on my radar very much.  It is very liberating.  It feels like my world has somehow expanded; I notice more of the world around me; the little things; the big things.  And because I meditate, I see things more equanimously; they are what they are.

Giving up stress, focusing on what is healthy, shaping my life around me; this journey has been a treat… and it is only just beginning.

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If You Could Turn Back Time…?


If I could turn back time, I wouldn’t drink, or smoke.  I’d go to class, and do my homework.  I’d take up gymnastics, or hockey, and go up mountains every weekend.  If I could turn back time, I’d be healthy.

But that’s the way my life went (and I still got a masters, despite it all).

I can’t change the past, whether I’d want to or not.  But I can change my now, and by George I am.  I am doing everything I ever dreamed of (and I walked up some Scottish hills before my illness got more debilitating).

Do I have regrets?  Sure I do.  But my life isn’t about what happened in the past.  It is a journey after all, and I wouldn’t appreciate now, and be so sure of where I want to go, if I hadn’t have had those experiences.

How has your past changed your present, and are you on your way to where you want to be now?

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Apparently MS Sounds Scary

Wheelchair.jpgI’d been single for four months and, well, I’m a romantic, so I decided to re-jigg my dating profile online.  Full of unfounded optimism – it had never worked before – I reached for the laptop, updated my pictures, retained my profile bio:

“I like dating.  Let’s date!”

(If it isn’t broke don’t fix it), and started to browse.

Let’s not be modest, I take a mean selfie.  So I soon had the emails flooding in.  ONE guy online-shrugged at my illness.  The others online-ran, like it was a race.  Even though I’m in a wheelchair I have a high conversion rate, from interest to interested, when I’m out and about.  Maybe it’s because the size of my bussoms is more apparent face-to-face?  I don’t know.  But what I do know is that people are shit-scared of wheelers online.  Wheely.

Anyway, I’m dating Mr Shrug on Wednesday.

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Pets and All the Rest

pet.jpgIf my blog gave me existence, my pet gave me the will to live.

My kitten was born just over a year ago.  A friend and I just celebrated her first birthday with loads of toys and boxes and wrapping paper, and she loved it.  I highly advocate pets for mental health.  They bring focus and love; someone to get up for.

I altered a mainstream song:

A friend in need is a friend indeed,
a friend with cats is better.
A friend with pets and all the rest,
a friend who’s dressed in pleather.

Happy Friday xXx

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Vitamins B and C Help With Energy

Vitamins.jpgA friend recently recommended Vits B and C for my energy levels.  While I usually tell non-MSers to go jump off a cliff, I thought, this time, well what’s to lose.  I bought a strong B complex from the local chemist and a high strength high quality Vit C from Amazon.  They  have made a very noticable difference to my energy levels… so I highly recommend them.  Remember quality and strength.  Yes you’ll dig deep in your pockets, but yes it is worth it.

I also recommend them for non-MSers.

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Birthday Reflection

balloons.jpgGrowing older is tough to take, but it has been the most joyful experience of my life.  Granted, the degenerative nature of my illness counts against me.  But every year I move up the age-scale, I detach more from with the mechanisms consumerist society uses to pitch us against each other to create a demand for products and services.

To put it simply, every year, I am happier and more content in my life.  I think more of others, and I take more gentle care of myself.

Birthdays are blessings because they remind me of how far I’ve come each year, and I can’t wait for mine this weekend.

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How Blogging Has Helped Me

Happy1.jpgI had no rhyme or reason to my directionless ‘try not to get ill’ of a life, prior to blogging.  I smoked, I drank, and I avoided stress at all costs.

Blogging has helped me make positive decisions about who I want to be and what I want to do.  I finally have a purpose in life.

I can dip in and out as I need.  It fits so well with my temperamental health.

Not to mention the super and brilliant people I’ve met through blogging.

I am so grateful that it has become part of my life.

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What is Mindfulness and How Can it Help Me?

Mindfulness Intro.jpgMindfulness has been used to help treat mental and physical disorders in the West for the past 30 years or so.  It can help with pain management, low immune efficiency, addiction, depression, anxiety and stress.

In a nutshell, it is a way of experiencing life in the moment, rather than in your head.  Of accepting life as it is rather than avoiding it with thoughts and self told stories about the way things are.

If you suffer with any of the above afflictions, look up MBCT (Mindfulness-Based Cognitive Therapy) and MBSR (Mindfulness-Based Stress-Reduction) as therapies.